Thursday, April 7, 2011

Just one minute mommy

So, lately I've been trying to juggle working full time and my wonderful family. KUDOS to the ones who do it chaos free!! Kelsie started Kindergarten this year and I work mostly 2nd shift so this is really hard for me. I haven't handled it very well. She goes to school in the morning and when she gets off the bus I'm already at work. The only good thing about it is Jeff has 4 days off a week now so at least she is getting to be at home instead of her Linda Grandmas(Jeffs mom), which by the way is a wonderful lady in my eyes! Anyways...I'm really trying to let everything go for once and devote all of my attention to Kelsie and Jeff...which is really hard for me. I hate not having the laundry put away, talking on the phone to my mother ( I have gone from talking to her everyday to every other day), doing the dishes after every meal, and keeping toys picked up. I have made a promise to Kelsie that I would start doing the dishes and putting the laundry away when she goes to bed. Which by the way I'm looking at my pile of  laundry on my couch right now wishing I could just hurry up and put it away....but NO!!! You can't do it Cathy. I want to be the mom who Kelsie remembers doing fun, cool things with...not the one who never paid attention to me. I have been sooo grouchy to Jeff and Kelsie lately and I'm trying really hard to get over it...I have a lot going on with my family right now as in mom,. dad and siblings and I'm trying my hardest not to take it out on Kelsie and Jeff but thats kind of hard when all she does is whine after school and all night. I know she is whining at my for a reason because she wants my attention and I'm trying from here on out to just stop what I'm doing and listen to her. I know I can tell her in just a minute mommy will help you or whatever you need...I just have to truly be there in just a minute as soon as whatever I'm doing is done. I can truly do this!! It makes my days so much better when my entire family is happy and getting along!! I love them sooo much...Thank you Jeff for putting up with me and my grouchiness for the past 7 years and to Kelsie mommy loves you so much and I promise to be the best mommy in the world! To all you working moms and non working moms you truly are amazing!!! I hope my daughter grows up to be a wonderful young lady who knows that her mother loves her dearly and knows that why I work is so that I can get her everything she wants and needs not because I didn't want to spend entire days with her. I'd give anything to be able to stay home with her and home school her everyday but unfortuntely I can't. My lesson learned is that when she is whining at me she just needs one minute from me...sometimes more but sometimes its just one minute of my time. I promise to give her that. I hope everybody has a wonderful Thursday and here's to the weekend coming upon us!! :)  Below is a picture of me and my loves on a mini vacation to St. Louis Missouri. We were all happy here because we were all together enjoying each others time and company!